Acceptance…

of what was and will be is a crucial, but often overlooked, action when you are trying to come to terms with a life that has been tumultuous. I found that the hang up I had with accepting what is was the fact that culturally, I was programed to believe that acceptance was synonymous with…

The Trouble with Reality.

Reality is the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them. Reality includes everything that is and has been, whether or not it is observable or comprehensible. -Wikipedia Perspective: a particular attitude towards or way of regarding something; a point of view. -Dictionary Truth: that which…

Finding Normal…

One of the issues that is hard to deal with when you are diagnosed with bipolar is the fact that you aren’t “normal.” There is a stigma that goes with being mentally ill and so people don’t talk about it, family tries to hide it, ignore it or deny it, patients live with a sense…

Alternative Therapy…

I am not talking electroconvulsive therapy, more along the lines of “mindfulness” and “self-care.” I loved “Talk Therapy.”  I found that combining talk therapy with my mindfulness and self-care ventures were mutually beneficial. You will run into obstacles and it is great knowing that there is a professional that can help you navigate. The point,…

Therapy

My first therapist was awful. She actually did more talking than I did and she did a great deal of leading, which I found out later is a major no-no in the therapy world. Their job isn’t to lead or feed your already instilled biases but to help you discover and draw your own conclusions…

The In’s and Out’s…

or perhaps more appropriately, the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder. You may be wondering; what is Bipolar? Well, it is a Psychiatric Mood Disorder also known as Manic-Depression. It manifests as extreme shifts in mood, energy levels and behavior and is caused by a defect in the part of the brain that regulates mood….

Life After the Hospital…

was bittersweet. I was overjoyed to be home and yet, being home was hard and a bit of a let down. Things felt flat, anti-climatic…boring. The same thing that landed me in a fabulous mental health facility is the same thing that has you back at home before you are completely ready to be back;…

Neither/ Nor…

My fourth (and last) episode, a catastrophic, cyclone of Super-Mania with psychosis that resulted in me being hospitalized, was the turning point in my life. I always referred to this episode as being the best thing that ever happened to me and it is. I thought the universe had finally decided to work for me…

Haldi (turmeric) time again…

It is winter here in India and temperatures have cooled down to those we experience in late spring and early summer back in the States, which means there is an abundance of fresh produce available. One of those items being turmeric. Turmeric looks a bit like naked ginger or a thicker skinned Thai galangal. I…

The Either/Or Scenario

So, these freaky, unexplainable incidents that I would find myself in, or rather the aftermath of these incidents, always perplexed me and not knowing what to do with them or how to define them I did what anyone would do and I took turns blaming either myself, my parents or people I had a relationship…

The Brain on Mania…

My Parents and siblings had moved to another State so my father could attend Seminary and I moved in with the grandparents. My grandparents were wonderful people and I wish my living with them had been better but my bipolar train had already jumped the tracks and was hurtling through space on course to collide…

Somewhere in the Middle…

lies the truth and now looking back on the events of my life I see it for exactly what it is. Life in all its wonderfully painful glory. I could take you through all the other bipolar episodes and the fall out of each but there is really no need to. Those years of  so…