Bipolar Break-Down: Musings from a Mad Mind

Bipolar, Purpose and this Page

I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder in December of 2005. I am genetically pre-disposed and it is suspected it is from both sides of my gene pond. I am, apparently, very high functioning because most people are clueless unless I tell them, and it seems some family members have forgotten because I am regaled with tales of woe concerning my younger sister’s plight. My younger sister was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 Disorder, roughly 10 years before my diagnosis and behaves as though she was given a lifetime worth of “get out of jail free” cards.

I was never the model child, and I have brought shame upon my family several times during my life, but something clicked when I was diagnosed. There was a reason for my screw ups and weird fugue states; I was not a lost cause! The Gods were not punishing me and I was not the spawn of Satan. It became my life mission to A). get better. So I could B). educate myself on Bipolar and C). learn to control it so it didn’t control me. Much later (like in the past 5 years) my new mission has been to educate the masses. It has been an up and down battle and gone sideways more times than I care to count.

The truth of the matter is, there is a lot of mis-information, stigma and just flat out stupid assumptions made by people that don’t have Bipolar or even know anyone with it. I am dedicating this page to all things Bipolar; information, my personal journey, my sister’s journey (a comparative study of sorts), bit of family history, and resources. Hopefully it helps break down the stigmas associated with mental health disorders and provides support for those that need it.